Talking About Stuff!!

August 26, 2025:

I'm losing my mind throwing away my families old stuff. It's like I'm throwing away their whole lives. I read my dad's old stuff.

I wanna die, but I'll be ok. Eventually.

August 25, 2025:

I think it's been about a week since my family left? I think I forgot to take my medicine yesterday, it's become so part of my routine. I need to brush my teeth.

I found a lot of my dad's old music projects, I love them so much.

I want to go back to music making and drawing, but I can't find the passion right now. I know I'll make so much bullshit after I feel better. At least my depression doesn't hurt as bad as it used to, I feel the same way mentally, but the hole seems to have been filled with dirt.

I have Alex.

August 22, 2025:

I've got my first taste of living independently, thankfully my boyfriend is there with me ;-;

I have no idea where I would be without him.

August 15, 2025: Music

I've been thinking about making remixes of some songs and uploading them here. Since I don't want to upload to youtube because they are just for fun and appreciation, not for stealing or monetary gain (If that makes any sense?). I'd delete them if their respected owners wish so.

I've got some songs I want to remix, and some I already had, but I'll need to think about it.

August 9, 2025: Music

I can't wait to finally release an album again! I feel more motivated than I've ever been for this album, that motivation really drives me to make something unique.

I've always wanted to get involved with a group of musicians. Kinda...

August 4, 2025: Music

I find it interesting that I've wanted to change my alias in regards to music, even though I haven't changed all too much. My music might sound different and is probably better than anything I've done before, but it's fundementally pretty similar.

It's a little hard to describe, I guess it's just that chunk of me staying true to how I express myself? But I've changed myself drastically over this past year, and I stick with my same name.

I feel like there's a connection of some sort, little bits of me that I cannot throw away, but I am happy to toss away other bits? I feel like there's a very simple explanation, but I'm not all that knowledgeable of fancy words

Maybe I've reached a point where I'm more proud of myself than my craft?

I CAN FINALLY SEE MY BOYFRIEND TOMORROW!!! >w<

August 3, 2025: Music

Got more meds
Finding more weird music to be inspired by, as per yooz.

August 2, 2025: Huh

I need to refill, I'm running low

Four more days, better make a phone call soon

I scanned through a bunch of old drawings, and it made me a bit sad. There's a lot of incomprehensible scribbles that mimic the feelings I had at the time, there's even some blood on a page.

I'm so glad the feelings stopped a long time ago, ever since I called my boyfriend, "boyfriend." I have no need to express myself in that way anymore, I finally have someone to tell all my troubles to.

July 30, 2025: More Music & Rambling

The first song on the album, and the first I made, now sounds like it fits with the rest of the album. Composition wise, it's my favorite, but it felt too dry in the mix. Or, just not atmospheric enough.

Parentals are now gone, getting ready to move soon :3 Now my life can actually "begin." I feel like I can finally begin getting my shit out there.

It sucks that I feel great now, but still have to live in this fascist state :/ England is just as bad, I don't understand how they don't see that...

July 29, 2025: Stuff again

I've been feeling better about the overall mix of my soon-to-be album, feels more consistent.

Spending time with my boyfriend :3

July 24, 2025: Nostalgia

For a few weeks now, for the first time in my life I've felt a strong sense of nostalgia. It's not bitter or sad, but fun and hopeful.

I guess I feel more connected to the fun parts of my childhood than ever? Maybe it's just growing up ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

July 23, 2025: Game

Working more on my game

Added a better main menu

Experimenting with more objects and states

July 22, 2025: stufffff

Added more art to the "Old Favorites" list

Added a few animations

Trying to make more music...

July 19, 2025: Music

I'm thinking about reviewing every album I've ever bought...

It would take a long long time tho...

I'll also make a section showing my favorite songs!

bought RPGMaker MV just to document two games...

July 18, 2025: Game stuffs

Doing some work on my game, nothing much else.

I really really miss my boyfriend : (

July 17, 2025: Work

Added some downloads to my games!

Made the art section more legible, Added "favorites list" to about me

July 16, 2025: Work

Made it so the resolution can be stretched, but not shrunk beyond its intended width.

Added some game stuff, and my boyfriend will be on vacation. I wont be able to see him ;-;

I fixed another resolution problem, I think...

July 14, 2025: Big protest today

In response to the kidnapping of farm workers by ICE, AND THE KILLING OF A FARMWORKER, we're gonna be protesting near by

July 13, 2025: More work

Made it so the resolution is more consistent and added an "art" page,

July 11, 2025: activities

Me and my boyfriend are gonna educate our friends on la migra spottings near our town and what we can do to help stop them from taking more people.

Also added to the music page...

July 8, 2025: IM FEELING!

I feel like a kid again! I'm so restless!!! :D

Life feels new!!!

July 7, 2025: I am now medicated!

July 6, 2025: We destroyed our piano
This was probably the most attention it's gotten in years

July 5, 2025: Created website!
I've been wanting to start one for a while.